Non responsive, but fighting

We thought Mom was going to pass away last night. I left off that Mom was getting another increase of pain medication with anxiety medication. Her increases were every 45 minutes from 8pm till present. Mom was under great distress from yesterday at 4:30pm till about 4:00am this morning.

Around 9:15pm the Doctor's and Nurses said Mom may not make it through the night. I had called Poppie, who had left for home for some sleep around 7:00pm. He and his sisters returned to the hospital around 9:50pm and stayed with Mom, Brian, Kimmy and I till 1:00am. I had called Mike and Cindy at 9:17pm and were waiting by the phone for my call when Mom was definitely close to passing.

Brian, Kimmy and I bunked down with Mom in her hospital room and are still here. Since yesterday, there has been a non stop flow of medical staff coming in to check on Mom. Many of them were off duty and coming in to be with her and the family. Mom is SO LOVED by so many. This experience to witness how deeply Mom has touched so many people is simply overwhelming and beautiful. If I can only hope to be able to touch so many and shower them with unconditional love.

Mom at this point, is resting and breathing without too much struggle. She is being kept comfortable and we believe she is not in distress or pain. Mom will continue to be receiving increases of Dilaudid (pain medication) on a continuous drip, intermittent pushes of more Dilaudid, when needed and Klonopin (anxiety medication) every hour or as needed. Mom at this point has received enough Dilaudid that an elephant would be resting well. She is fighter for sure. We all hope she will be able to rest at peace today and for ever on.

To add to the unusual, it began raining early this morning and now is snowing. Mom must be controlling our weather. She loves snow and may be dreaming she is getting ready to go ice skating, sledding, or simply romping in the snow as we did when I was a younger. The power that our "Little Energizer Momma Ruthie" has is simply magical.

More to follow.

All our love,
Karen